Trash Slash guh

bye bye Zeppo

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 04:39:16 GMT

Today my car went to it's new owner. I traded it for cash. Now I have a Prelude shaped hole in my heart. I miss him already. Not having a car sux! I feel totally lost and stranded and I had to walk to the post-office, and I have tossed out all my walking shoes so now I have blisters and WAH WAH WAH.

So to my car, the adorable Zeppo, I say thank-you. Thanks for never breaking down at an intersection. Thanks for not rolling down that embankment I skidded over when I spun out on loose wet gravel. Thanks for getting me from A to B to C and further in relative comfort and security. Thanks for starting every-time I turned the ignition (except for that 1 time at Uni... but I am over that). Thanks for the awesome growly noise you made when you hit 7000rpm and shifted gears. Most of all, thanks for not crapping out before I got the chance to sell you on.

I should also say sorry. I'm sorry for letting your oil run too low. I'm sorry for spending about 6 months only filling the tank when you hit empty. I'm sorry for driving you home the day I got you with the handbrake on. I'm sorry for immediately backing you into a tree when I first parked you. I'm sorry for every subsequent scrape and bump and dent that I gave you due to my utter inability to park. Finally, I'm sorry for not keeping you and taking you to Australia with me... but that was seriously unfeasible.

We had some great times together Zeppo. All those long straight runs on country roads. The thrill of whipping you around the twists and turns of the Port Hills and Southern Alps. The time we out-raced a motorbike at the lights... hehe, he was surprised! And all the day to day moments of zoom-zoom fun we had running around town with the sunroof open and the wind blowing and me singing along (very badly) to whatever latest tune I was thrashing to death on my iPod.

Bye Zeppo. Here's to your new owner loving you as much as I did.

A huge Hi !!! and *BIG WAVE* to the new people on my friends list. Sorry I have not gotten round to commenting and introducing myself properly yet. I'm moving country in 2 more sleeps and things are getting a little frantic due to my procrastination. I promise to get up to speed as soon as I get moved and have internet access. I am stoked to have you all on my flist and I look forward to getting to know y'all better very soon. Yay for Supernatural! The best way to meet very cool people :D

In Eric Kripke's Thrall

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 13:13:17 GMT

2.17

Wow. It's taken me this long just to get over that episode enough to even say what I thought of it. I think I have already flogged Silent Lucidity harder than I did Renegade. The opening notes still tear me up.

Eric Kripke, you trully deserve the title of magnificent bastard. Joss Whedon himself couldn't have done better. 'Heart' just ripped me to shreds. I was totally lulled by the brother humour, the werewolf angle and of course .. the hottest SEX ever!!! (seriously, Sam/Madison blows Dean/Cassie right out of the water). The 2 J's really really knocked it out of the park this time.

The final 6 minutes I watched over and over. And I cried every damn time. So much pain. Tear soaked Sam looking to Dean, asking him to wait, Dean's face as the shot is heard. Arghhhhh!!

In other news. I have sold my car. It goes Friday morning. Gave my DVD's and CD's to Sarah. Sold my books. Tomorrow is 'tackle the wardrobe' day. The goal is to have it and my dresser and set of drawers empty by dinner time. Then it's off to have the first good-bye dinner with my Bio-Dad, Step-Mum and other non-blood-related sorta family members. I really don't like saying goodbye, I'm too used to it, I always feel like I don't seem sad enough or something.

This time next week I will be on the Sunshine Coast. Getting ripped with the cuz and working out how to show-up at my Dad's to say 'Hi, I'm back!'. This is my lame-arsed way of avoiding having to deal with him on the phone. I figure by just showing up out of the blue he will be too surprised to get all upset about me quitting Uni for a semester. Hmm... it's gonna be interesting if nothing else.

Also, ummm 300 .. hello, I so cannot wait for that movie to get here!!! Hot, sweaty, half-naked and bloody men.... yes please. Plus, Gerard Butler... *guh*... I've had the biggest crush on him ever since seeing Dear Frankie. That, and Black Sheep (a kiwi horror movie about genetically engineered bloodthirsty sheep) are pretty much the only trailers I have seen lately that have made me consider actually going to the movies.

My bags are packed and I'm ready to go...

Tue, 20 Mar 2007 12:39:35 GMT

Okay, not entirely. Bags are not yet packed. But I am ready to go.

In a move which has shocked pretty much everyone I know except for my mother, who is used to my rash decisions by now, I have decided to go back to Australia a little earlier than previously planned. Actually, alot earlier. In less than two weeks I will once again board a jet plane with all my worldly possessions distilled into one (far too small) backpack and a carry-on.

I am going home.

To Townsville. A place I once swore I would never again live in. Those types of blanket statements always seem to come back and bite me in the arse. Atleast summer is almost over. So I will not die of heat exhaustion as soon as I disembark the plane. I am flying into Brisbane on VirginPacific, which I hate. But 4 hours of cramped and noisy misery is a small price to pay for getting the hell away from this country. I will not even complain about the screaming baby that will inevitably be seated right next to me. I really don't like people who fly with small children. I feel sorry for the kids, but even sorrier for me having to listen to them.

I plan to spend about a week or so in Brisbane and the Sunshine Coast visiting friends and family before getting another flight north. Probably on VirginBlue, 'cause they are cheap and usually available for any date. Then, after another 2 hours of cramped, noisy misery (I have yet to fly long-haul, the thought of 24 hours on a plane terrifies me, I think I would go mad and try to open the door) I will be in beautiful, sunny and warm tropical north Queensland. Living with my mum (and her husband who hates me) until I get a flat and a job.

So now it is a mad dash to clean up, get rid of all the sundry crap I have collected over the last 3 years, sell my car, find someone to take over my lease, and cancel my enrolment at uni. I have already listed my car and room on trademe (NZ version of eBay). Hopefully someone will want to buy my rusty hunk of junk, and hopefully I will get my bond back... 'cause that is all I will have to keep me fed until I find work.

The worst part so far has been telling everyone, it's hard to say good-bye, and sad making. I know they are disappointed in me not staying and sticking it out until the end of the uni year. I am going to miss alot of people here. I am also going to miss NZ. Just not as much as I currently miss Australia. I will come back again I know. If I make it to retirement age, this is where I would want to live, I even have a spot picked out on the West Coast where I will build a cosy little house and fill it with cats and Franklin Mint collectibles. Heh... there's a slogan for ya, NZ: Great place to retire (shitty place to be young).

Ten terrific things that start with 'T'!

Sun, 18 Mar 2007 21:04:27 GMT

Okay... here goes... from the lovely sing_outloud91 who gave me the letter T and the rules of the game.

Temptation - 'Cause you so want to, but you shouldn't, but you want to, 'cause it's so tempting
Toast - I think toast is the best thing since sliced bread *is lame*
Tool - Yes, colour me bogan, but I love Tool and have done since I was 16
Towels - All warm and fluffy, giant bathsheet towels are heaven in woven form
Twix - Hmm... a gimme, only chocolate bar I could think of that starts with a T, yummy though
Ties - I don't have to wear them, and I think they look hot
Toungues - Useful and fun, couldn't talk without them for a start
Telephones - Maddening at times, but a century (+) old technological gift that just keeps giving
Tobacco - I love the smell and the smoke
Tomatoes - By far and away my favourite vegetable that is actually a fruit

Kids at home, you can play along too! Just leave me a comment and I will give you a letter, then you can make your own list of Ten Things you love. *joy*

It has been a while since I last posted

Sun, 18 Mar 2007 16:43:04 GMT

And yet, although stuff has happened, I can't really think of anything to write about at this stage. Then again, it is 4.23 in the morning, which is really 5.23 'cause daylight savings ended last night. I should be asleep. Heh.. not likely. The hamster in my head just keeps running on that damn wheel.... round and round and round and round and, well, you get the picture.

So here is what I posted just now in 5gratitudes

5 things that made me happy today

There was a big storm today with rain, hail, thunder and lightning.
I saw the clumsiest cat in the world try to catch a moth and instead land on its butt.
A friend made me toasted hot-cross buns with lots of butter.
I spoke to two friends who are overseas, and both said they miss me.
The guy at the petrol station correctly identified my accent (this does not happen often).

SPN 2*16

Okay, I really enjoyed this episode. I have yet to watch it again, and most reviews/recaps I have read suggest it gets even better with repeat viewing... so thats on my to do list.
I loved the darkness, the woods and creepy log cabin/abandoned house etc. Such horror movie staples, complete with damsel in distress.
I loved the slight exaggeration of Sam and Dean, the continued and expanded upon theme of their differing views towards those they hunt.
The final line slayed me. The sunrise shot at the end was beautifully coloured. Trisha Helfer was an excellent guest star.
Dean got some classic lines. My fave was 'you can call me Dean'. Sam got some great Captain Empathy moments. Especially when explaining the 'why' of ghosts to Molly.
I did not watch the preview for next week and still I managed to get a little bit spoiled. Oh well. Still can't wait for Friday.

Today In Review

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 10:06:58 GMT

Happy Making :)

Spongebob Squarepants is back on! and in other TV related news... Grey's Anatomy did not suck.
My 4 hour lab only took 2 1/2 hours ... so I got to watch Spongebob *glee*
I had an afternoon nap and dreamt I lived in a gorgeous apartment with all the girls from The L Word
kroki_refur posted a new chapter of The Crow in The Cradle AND With Spit and A Prayer bliss... thy name is fanfic!
I went shopping and bought underwear .. yay! and a Starbucks Caramel Frappucino ... evil!yay!
Parked on campus almost all day and did not get a fine ... take that campus security
Had a totally awesome Evolution lecture all about geological time and fossils and stuff, it was fun+
Saw this picture ... neck porn. Mmmmmmm neck neck neck neck neck ... *guh* I didn't lick the screen I swear (wanted to though).

Happy Taking :(

Being stuck behind a really nice new sporty little MG ... doing 40 ... in a 60 zone ... with the left indicator permanently on. I'm all 'so, not that street, maybe the next one eh?, no, not that one either.. bit lost are you? still indicating... still doing 40, are you even in there? oh... your an old hat-wearing male. Nuff said'. Bastard does not deserve a car that sweet.
I bought a pack of cigarettes. Total time "quit" ... less than 2 days.
My nose started bleeding spontaneously in lab... we were already playing with (unspecified) mammal blood... it was a blood-spattered mess.
Car registration expired ... boo.

Munted .... just totally frakkin' munted!

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 10:27:44 GMT

So there is a lunar eclipse soon.

Do you see NZ on that map... ya, thats right, it's in the 'No Eclipse Visible' zone. I'm sad now.

But as compensation... today I got to see the most spectacular sunset. Probably the best I have seen in a good year. It just fully lit up the sky with gold which darkened through all shades of fire until it was a deep burnished red. Seriously AWESOME !!!. I wish I had a digital camera, then I would now have pic's to show you... oooh... I wonder if I can find any on google-images.

*runs off to trawl the interweb*

Okay. So I didn't find any from today. But I found a few that look pretty much like what I saw this evening.

Kinda like this in the beginning.

What it looked like towards the end.

And then Bye Bye sun.... see you tomorrow.

Yeah... that made my whole day! I was driving at the time. Led Zeppelin blaring in my ears, cruising along, so busy checking out the sunset in the rearview mirrror that I topped out at just over 70 in a 50 zone... on the same street where I last got done for speeding no less... not smart! So I did the sensible thing and pulled over just to watch it set before heading on my merry way.

In other news. Today I politely informed my body that, due to budgetary (and waistline) constraints, it is forthwith going to be denied its two recent drugs of choice. Nicotine and McDonalds. It did not take the news well, and immediately stormed off to have a cigarette (2nd last) to calm down. Following the (oh so delightful) smoke was a goodbye trip to Macca's. Farewell oh purveyor of all that is good, greasy, salty and sweet. No more shall I see your brightly logo'd and spent soft-drink flagons littering my humble residence like the detritus of a giant inflatable sea monkey. In all honesty, I have been mainlining the stuff lately, and that is just sooooooooo not healthy. Hello fruit... long time no see. Yay!

Now it's time for me to try and sell last years text books on TradeMe to get rent money. I love being a student XD

Ooooohhh.... Pretty Bloody Dean in the Moodtheme.... I <3's me some Bloody!Dean.... that man looks damn good in red!

Hmmmm, that was kinda fun.

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 04:23:47 GMT

Get Your Sexy Name

The Week In Review

Fri, 02 Mar 2007 13:00:52 GMT

It's 1 am and I just went out into the kitchen. Front door is open, back door is open. On the kitchen counter there is an empty bottle of vanilla vodka which was full this evening, 13 empty bottles of Red Bull and a rapidly melting bag of ice. On the lounge room table there are 2 pipes and 4 empty beer bottles. This was all consumed by 2 people. Who right now are probably alternating between rapid-heartbeat alertness, and stoned-drunk sleepiness. The ice I put in the freezer, the rest can serve as a nauseating wake-up call in the morning. Bloody kids!

First week of Uni is done and dusted. Apart from the usual administration fuck-ups it went pretty well. Only had 1 lecture that the professor didn't show for. Only had to spend 1 hour in the School of Science waiting for someone to do an enrolment system update that literally took 30 seconds. Only had 1 building black-out during the middle of a computer lab (doing linear regression crap in excel) which, of course, happened BEFORE I saved my work. I still have not purchase my lab manuals due to the extreme inefficiency of the print-house distribution system. Figure I can hopefully take care of that 1st thing monday. All up... no worse than last year XD.

Made some new friends. Whose names all seem to begin with S. Weird. Had a nice little catch-up dinner with last years lab crowd. Most of whom are now majoring in Biol or Geol. I seem to be the lone Chem major. We ate ridiculous amounts of chocolate, got slightly pissy-eyed on champagne, and watched Grey's Anatomy ... during which the only male in the room promptly fell asleep. Poor dear. I have had to face the fact that my fave boy from last year is not returning to study. I will miss him. He was so very tall (6'6"), and had all the same classes as me, so I always knew I was in the right place when I saw him poking up head and shoulders above everyone else. Bye Tibbles :(

The house-of-hell seems to be disintegrating before my eyes. James will be gone in less than 3 weeks. Colleen has disappeared house-sitting somewhere, and I haven't seen Mark for over a fortnight. The landlords have sold us too. Nothing will change really, but now they don't give a crap about things that are breaking left-right-and-centre. Grrrr... I bet the new guys put the rent up as soon as my lease expires. Plus Jackry is back from China, so the car-parking situation has reached critical mass. I nearly ran over a bloody skateboard in the driveway a couple of nights ago! But more amusingly, Ellen's dad came over from china to visit her. He didn't speak any english at all. Now he knows 'Hey/Hi' and 'Howzit Goin' ?' and 'Sweet As'. He's way cool!

Sheesh .. It sounds like someone is chainsawing something a couple of houses down. At 1.30am. Nutso!

In happy making news. I have finally started to convince people here to watch Supernatural. We have only just started on season 1. I think my friends are just getting sick of me hassling them every Friday, 'cause they are starting to watch it!. Tonight it was Skin. An excellent introduction to the show. It was delayed by an hour because of stupid fucking waste-of-airspace Idol. But I got a several txt messages from people saying they were FINALLY watching the show. NZ doesn't count for shit in the grand scheme of ratings etc (I don't even know if they do ratings here?), but atleast I now have people in RL that I can bore stupid with endless commentary on how awesome this show is :D.

Fox news is talking about some college baseball team in a bus crash in Atlanta? Sounds awful, 6 dead. And tornadoes in Alabama killed 5 kids in a school and possibly over 20 all up. Tragic day. Kinda puts my whinging in perspective. Any day above ground is a good day.

On that note, I'm done.

GODDAMNIT!

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 15:54:45 GMT

I just accidentally got spoiled. I am so pissed.

Grrrrrr !!! Seriously. I was on TWoP forums trying to find something out. Instead I get myself slightly spoiled. They have black-out stuff for that you know. Ughh.

Oh well. Just needed to vent. Will be staying well clear of anything remotely SPN related from now until March 15th.

Fanmix - Downloadable (I hope?)

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 15:35:49 GMT

Okay, So I don't really know if this is going to work... but here goes.

This is the first time I have made a fan mix and tried to make it available to others. Also, I have a mac, so I don't even know if that makes any difference to the files. Plus I don't have photoshop or basically any way of making album art or whatever for this. So it's all up just a little pick of songs that are around for the taking if wanted.

The file is 65MB on MegaUpload. There were so so so many songs I wanted to use, as you can imagine, but this is just my first attempt... so it's kind of a jumble of fave SPN songs. A little old, a little new(ish) etc.

I hope it works. If it doesn't, let me know. I probably won't be able to do much about it though, I'm a bit clueless like that. Oh... and if anyone does like it and makes their own cover-art... post it so I can see, I love other peoples creativity :-). I don't even have a printer... yeah... I'm that sad!

Here's the goods.

1) Simple Man - Lynyrd Skynyrd

I have loved this song for many years. Now though, it makes me think of Mary and her sons.

"All I want for you my son,
Is to be satisfied."

*gulp* ... *tears* ... every damn time

2) Soldier of Fortune - Deep Purple

Dean's song. 'Cause he is a soldier, in an unseen war. It's so melancholy.

3) Enter Aretha - Rolf Schraa

This is a mash-up, and was in a very good fanvid that I can no longer find. It's Aretha Franklin and Metallica (Enter Sandman). And it frakkin' rocks out. Plus, it has bits of dialogue. It makes me think of the night that everything changed for the Winchesters and the new life they embraced.

4) Ballroom Blitz - Blue Oyster Cult

Sammy song. Okay, so Dean is more the BOC guy. But this song is trippy and fun. And it makes me think of Sam, so ... umm ... yeah.

"Oh it's been getting so hard
Livin' with the things you do to me, aha
Oh my dreams are getting so strange
I'd like to tell you everything I see"

5) Living After Midnight - Judas Priest

"Got gleaming chrome, reflecting steel, loaded, loaded
Ready to take on every deal, loaded, loaded
My pulse is racing, I'm hot to take
This motors revved up, fit to break

Living after midnight, rockin' to the dawn
Lovin 'til the morning, then I'm gone, I'm gone"

6) Low Rider - War

One for the Metallicar. Maybe she's not officially a low rider. But this song is all about the car love, and SPN's got alot of that.

7) Wake Up - The Arcade Fire

Poor boy's. All getting ripped to pieces wither physically or emotionally or both. This songs lyrics are quite appropriate, but it's also damn anthemic (is that even a word?).

"If the children don’t grow up,
our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.
We’re just a million little god’s causin rain storms
turnin’ every good thing to rust.

I guess we’ll just have to adjust."

8) Immigrant Song - Led Zeppelin

I would really like to hear this on the show. Probably not gonna happen. So it's on my playlist instead. It all about Vikings and Valhalla and stuff. It kicks! I can totally see Dean and Sam toolin down some back road with this blasting.

9) Red Right Hand - Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds

YED's song.

"You'll see him in your nightmares,
you'll see him in your dreams
He'll appear out of nowhere but
he ain't what he seems

You're one microscopic cog
in his catastrophic plan
Designed and directed by
his red right hand"

10) Sinnerman - Nina Simone

On the run from the FBI, the YED, maybe other hunters and even themselves. This song is all about the boys seeking sanctuary and answers.

11) Like A Stone - Audioslave

"By a freeway I confess
I was lost in the pages
Of a book full of death
Reading how we'll die alone
And if we're good we'll lay to rest
Anywhere we want to go"

12) White Room - Cream

John's song. It makes me think of him becoming a hunter, fighting to avenge Mary and waiting to join her again. Now, of course, he's in hell... who knows whats gonna happen next.

"I'll sleep in this place with the lonely crowd;
Lie in the dark where the shadows run from themselves."

13) Laugh, I Nearly Died - The Rolling Stones

Saw Bloody Mary again the other night. I love this song. Did not even remember it being on that episode, but there you go. It plays as the boys are leaving town and Sam sees Jess.

14) 24 - Jem

It's about dying. In 24 hours. Its sad. Makes me think of Dean's acceptance of death as an inevitable part of the job he does.

"Plans that I made
Start to fade
The sun's setting gold
Thought I would grow old,
It wasn't to be"

15) ? - ? ... Random track I found the other day. I can just imagine Dean playing this to piss Sam off... over and over and over again. It makes me giggle. Could just be a temporary lapse of judgement caused by too much caffiene and not enough sleep.

Here 'Tis

ENJOY.

Can you handle your jandal ?

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 19:57:54 GMT

I love collecting colloquialisms. My new favourite is 'Can't handle his jandal'. It means, basically, you are just not hardcore enough to party and stay awake.

I first heard it last night. It's distinctly Kiwi (the use of 'jandal' being the big clue, in Oz they're called 'thongs' in the US I think it's 'flip-flops').We were having a little Thursday night session, and poor Alex definitely could not hande his jandal, he passed out almost mid-sentence slung back in one of the chairs with a bottle of beer resting lightly on his stomach. I commented we should remove the beer. I was naysayed. The beer inevitably ended up on the floor. Alex however proved to be together enough to steal the couch at the first opportunity, and then was completely immovable. I got a phone call from Oz, and spent most of it in giggly hysterics after James came inside, kicked the couch to try and wake Alex up, and only succeeded in completely breaking off one arm. This was AFTER he spent about 15 minutes chasing flies and moths with can of flyspray and a lighter. I am still stunned that he didn't burn the house down. There are a few random scorch marks on the kitchen ceiling though. Landlords gonna love that.

Oh, and incase you are wondering just how many flatmates I have, 'cause I seem to talk about quite a few different people. I have 8 flatmates. Eldest 35+, youngest 20. Everything from dock-workers through to students. Sometimes I think we are just a few shy of a commune round here. Last night our carpark reached critical mass. There are 8 car bays. We had 12 cars and 1 motorbike in there. At one point you had to move a minimum of 3 cars just to get out. Ridiculous. But I am sad. James, the baby of the house, is going to be moving out in a month. To a place that has a double garage that he can use to work on his motorbike. It's one of those terribly fast creatures that does 280k/hr without breaking a sweat, very scary if you ask me. I am going to miss him. He's alot of fun. He can handle his jandal.

Probably the coolest thing I have seen in a good while ...

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 09:49:15 GMT

Influences

Celebrate your failure, 'cause it makes others look good.

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 22:44:27 GMT

Ughh. What a schmozzle. And it's not even midday yet.

So I had my chem final today. I know I have failed. And I know that it is my own fault. But I am surprisingly okay with this. It will fuck my GPA a little, but I already have all my pre-requisites for this years subjects and only did this to get a bit of extra credit. Which I need, but can get later.

I knew I was screwed pretty much straight away. Usually the first few questions are cruisy. Todays exam, yeah, not so much. I looked at the 1st question and mentally said 'oh crap', second question 'double crap', third question 'oh crap crap crappity crap'... and it was all downhill from there. Probably should have gone to more lectures. Studying would have been a good idea too :)

Yesterday I decided to pull an all-nighter. This cunning plan consisted of me having an afternoon nap, getting up at 7.30pm and watching TV until 11.30pm. Then I went to the supermarket to stock up on sugar and caffeinated beverages. Then I spent 5 hours writing unnecessary emails, uploading pics, and playing with my LJ layout. 5am saw me organising my notes. 6am was breakfast and some study. 7am was shower. 7.30am I sat at the kitchen table and wasted 1/2 an hour trying to get 1 answer to match my lecturers before realising her answer was wrong. By 8.30 I gave up, went to uni, ingested MORE caffeine and engaged in chit-chat with fellow students.

Atleast it's fine out and I got to drive home with the sunroof down and Back in Black cranked up real loud!

Now I plan to get some hardcore sleep.

i <3 the brothers mcleod

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 12:28:50 GMT

Spamland #2

I love this soooooooo much!

Confessions of a disintegrating mind

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 14:33:19 GMT

It's 3 am. I cannot sleep. So I'm reading fic and randomly cogitating.

1st Topic

Dean and the chipmunk cheeks. CGI or real?

I was perusing the Television Without Pity forums. I am addicted to the motivator thread. It was how I first read about Supernatural. This was way back when there was a whole series being done based on the Dean Winchester = Chuck Norris gags. I thought, "my, what a fine looking fella" ... and eventually found a way to watch all of season 1's episodes, which I churned through in about 4 days.

But I digress. So, I was reading peoples thoughts on Tall Tales in the forum, which was basically a whole lot of squee and Bobby love with the requisite few naysayers. What surprised me though was how many people seemed to think the whole cheeks choca with candy chunks scene was CGI. I mean, SERIOUSLY! people... have you never played 'Chubby Bunny'? If you had you would know that you can fit a ridiculous amount of food in your mouth and still talk relatively intelligibly.

*note: chubby bunny basically involves filling your mouth 1 marshmallow at a time, and after the addition of each new marshmallow saying 'chubby bunny'. It is inane and stupid but completely hilarious. The winner is the person who can fit the most marshmallows in their mouth and still say chubby bunny. I used to play it with my brothers many many years ago.... umm.... maybe it was only 'our' game. eeeek... cringe*

Conclusion - I will eat an entire bag of marshmallows in 1 sitting if this scene was CGI. I vote method acting all the way!

Topic the 2nd

The Inner!Dean voice.

Has anyone else noticed this? You say something or hear something and your inner monologue all of a sudden turns into Dean?

This happened today. My flatmate has gone on a baking binge. She is not working and not studying and has ALOT of time on her hands. So she bakes almost daily. Mostly muffins, sometimes cakes, sometimes both. Todays muffin flavour was Date and Coffee ... interesting combo, better than it sounds, really.

Anyway, I was generally hanging around the kitchen making a nuisance of myself waiting for the muffins to cool down enought to eat. Then I just had to pick at one. It was very yum. So I said to her ... 'I love your muffins'. Inner!Dean immediately responded with 'that sounds vaguely dirty, but thanks'. I blame the fact that it even sounded vaguely dirty on having watched Mean Girls last night (ya know, the whole 'butter your muffin' scene).... and, ughhh, sorry ... this is now just sleep deprivation rambling. Sheesh!

- Am actually kinda freaking out at the moment 'cause I found out today that I have an exam at 9.30am on Tuesday, which my course handout said was on at 1pm Wednesday. And its worth 50% of total grade. And I did not go to a single lecture all last week. And I have not studied AT ALL. So panic is my middle name right now. Expect a rather maudlin post on Tuesday arvo which I shall write as I cry into a bottle of champagne (I'm all about celebrating failure).

Home ... it's the place where I keep my stuff.

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 05:41:13 GMT

Life has been giving me a good kicking lately. Most of it I deserve. I am financially extremely irresponsible, and just now beginning to pay for my past sins. But over these last couple of days I decided I have had enough. I am making my plans to leave New Zealand. To go back to Australia. My adopted homeland and the place where I still keep most of my stuff.

I moved back to New Zealand on the 28th of February 2004, after living in Australia for over 12 years. During that time I became an Australian citizen, got an Australian passport, and accent, and tax-file number, and student debt, and major drug habit. I came back to NZ to clean-up, dry out, get my shit together. I came back because I thought I was 'homesick', because I had had no choice about leaving back in 1991, because I needed to be far far away from the life I was living in Aus. And it was a good thing to do. I got clean, got sorted, got work and then started a new avenue of study. Now I am so over this place it is not even funny.

New Zealand is beautiful. Scenic and stunning and quite unspoilt. But it is also small, and kinda boring, and a total nanny state (seriously, it's about to become illegal to spank your child.. really!, most kids I see around these days need a damn good smack). The wages suck. The tax and student loan systems bite. The cost of living is (to me) quite disproportionate to income levels. I will admit it. Australia is better than New Zealand. And it took living here for nearly 3 years for me to realise that. To realise just how good I had it in 'the land of plenty'.

I want the things I took for granted back. I want my $20 an hour standard wage. I want my $6000 tax-free threshold. The $35000 student loan repayment threshold. I want my 9% employer paid superannuation. I want the $1500 government paid voluntary contribution bonus. I want my medicare goddamnit. Cheaper consumer goods and better TV programming. I want it all. But most of all I want to go 'home'.

I just REALLY miss my family. I miss hanging out with my brothers. I see them once a year now. It's like I don't even know them sometimes. I miss my neice Ziah. She is nearly 4. I don't want to be an absent aunty. Someone she sees for maybe 2 weeks a year. I want to be someone she grows up knowing. I miss my Dad, and my Mum, and their partners, and Bags our cat. He is 16 now. He will have to be put down soon. I don't want to find that out by phone. I miss my 3 best friends so much it hurts. I miss the easy connections we had. The commonality of sharing everyday life. Last time I went back to Aus it took me a few days of being around them before I began to relax and feel at home. I did not like that at all. Emails and phone calls are great. But they in no way compare to just hanging out for the hell of it. I miss my cousin and aunt, whom I lived with for a year or so when they first moved to Australia. My cousin and I spent alot of time together growing up. We are like sisters. I miss going up the coast for 3 days just to chill out, watch crap movies and tag along as she went about her day.

I miss other things too. The sunshine is a BIGGIE. I miss the smell of the ocean, and the salt halos around the streetlights. I miss hearing the Aussie accent. I miss summer thunderstorms. Watching sugar cane burn. The lightning. The smell of hot wet bitumen. Mangos and lychees. The absolute perfection of a Queensland winter. The surreal golden skin parade of a Sunshine Coast summer. I actually miss being hot. Steaming away in 99% humidity. I miss the outdoors lifestyle. The fact that everything comes alive after sundown. I miss Rainbow Lorikeets and Cockatoos and Geckos and Blue-Tongue Lizards. I miss the sound of thouands of cicadas just belting it out in the gum trees. I miss frangipanis and eucalypts. Palm trees and Norfolk pines. I love the mountains here, and the prettiness of snow. But that is about it.

And I really think it says alot about my time in NZ that, even after 3 years here, most of what I consider important (and most of my stuff) is on the other side of the Tasman. I had to come back to New Zealand to discover that I am really an Australian. I will finish up this year of studies, 'cause it's too late to transfer now, and then come November I will be going home. I can't wait! I won't even complain about the heat once... I promise!

Why you should be watching Supernatural (spoilers for 2.15)

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 13:31:24 GMT

Meet Dean Winchester...

... he loves walls...

... his car...

... and his little brother Sam...

... who loves him right back.

He has the BIGGEST eyes you have ever seen...

... and looks good in red...

... white...

... and blue...

... but looks like crap in the morning.

He likes guns...

... and knows how to use them...

... infact, he's a bit of a hardass...

... with a few anger management issues...

... having sexual chemistry with your demon possessed father will do that to you.

But he's a patient guy...

... easily amused...

... a great conversationalist...

... and social drinker...

... who loves to fly.

He's a bit of a flirt...

... knows how to get his happy on...

... the ladies love him...

... who wouldn't really...

... He's quite a catch.

So if you're not already watching Supernatural...
... ponder this.

'nuff said!

Screencaps from supernatural.tv, jraunlimited.com, raloria , marishna , justfreefallin , moondropz and kroki_refur .

Tall Tales

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 09:30:20 GMT

Just a few random thoughts typed as I watch.

Oh yay! Looks like the prankin' might get a round two... *flails... already*
OMFG .. the 'THEN' was awesome to the nth power... I never get tired of th 'bitch' .. 'jerk' routine

Oh noes ... another white dress clad female , and dodgy skeazoid Professor ... this is not gonna end well (and he writes about Morality, perfect!)
'somewhat of a celebrity' ... sheesh .. ego much? , 'I just respect you too much' ... sooooo original
egads .... death from above

awww pissy!sam and gluttonous!dean ... sweet. Nice bed too.
oh noes ... what happened to the impala?
arrrrgghhhh .... BOBBY! .... *squee* *flail* .... Awesomeness just got awesomer
Curtis is a bonehead ........ Purple Nurples , heeeee ... aww Drunk dean is so cute, and such a horndog *g*

Excellent ... double points of view... 'classy chick' oh hell yeah
Dean is so sauve ... in his head! LOVE IT! .... 'it's like staring into the sun' ... oh I bet it is.... hilarious!

CAN I JUST SAY I AM LOVING THIS EPISODE TO DEATH ALREADY

Oh sam !!! Coat over 1 shoulder, that expression is priceless ... and OH MY FUCK .... 'Dean, what do you think you're doing" ... so uber narky, fark, I think this epi is going to kill me ... the pissy pursed lips, like he's just caught his boyfriend doing something V naughty
Blah blah blah blah ... blah blah ....blah blah blah .... Blaaaahhhhhhhh ....Frakkin A!
'Bickering like an old married couple' .... Bobby is LOVE!

Okay ... Dean with the mouth full of god knows what. .... CANNOT WAIT FOR THE SCREENCAPS OF THAT
I don't even have words for how funny that was
I cant write this anymore ... too much funny
Gonna watch, probably twice ... then expire from lack of oxygen due to hyperlaughter.

Kripke .... I want your babies.

EDIT -

1) Brother wrestling ..... yes .... oh god yes
2) Lady in Red will never be the same for me
3) The finale, on a stage, with leatherface and the faster pussycat girls and the buffyesque staking .... superfantastico!
4) Bobby ... just, oh Bobby!
5) Ginormotron in full-on hyper-compassionate mode ... comic timing+++++++

Most fabulous, ridiculous, hilarious, over-the-top, classic episode yet.
Damn the hiatus (or is that just a nasty rumour?)
Nope, not a rumour.... *cries*

Killing all the flies

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 15:32:46 GMT

It's gotten so cold this past couple of days. All the flies have died. You can see your breath at night. It's February! this is not on. Has just served to confirm that my decision to go back to Australia next summer for the Uni break is a good one.

Have spent past hour or so watching The Chaser's War on Everything clips on youtube. Bloody hilarious. I used to love these guys, I lived in Oz then, when they did CNNNN (Chaser's Non-Stop News Network, more N's than any other network) back in 03-04. They still have the gift of comic gold. The clip on Americans was particularly amusing (and controversial if you read the comments). Favourite online comment... 'Do you spell "hubris" with one fuck-off or two?'... am gonna have to save that one in the old memory bank, just incase I ever get the opportunity to use it :-)

Also working through alot of fanfic from recent 'rec' posts. I just love well-written fanfic, and there is alot of it out there. It's keeping me very happy and entertained. Better than a book! The Winchesters never get boring. And I will confess now that I am a bit partial to the ol' RPS and wincest. Those guy's were just made to shag each other rotten. Even if just fictionally (but I still have my suspicions).

Also recently discovered FanWank on superwiki. Love it! It kept me amused for many of the early moring hours yesterday. Ahhh... LiveJournal, what else have you got hidden away for me. One of these day's I am going to have a real good look around. I keep trying to, but I have the attention span of a gnat, it does not take much for me to just follow the picspams and go 'ohh, new, shiny, pretty'.. then 3 hours have passed and it's time to do something constructive. Like sleep.

Which, considering it is now 4.30am and I have uni later, then work, would be a good idea about now. But I am just not tired.... enough.

And all your bad days will end

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 06:24:22 GMT

lyric from the Flaming Lips song - Bad Days , incase you were wondering about the title.

I am at a loss today. Woke up feeling like I had been whumped across the head with a piece of 2x4 and my eyeballs had been replaced with flaming hot cheese puffs. So I called my boss and piked out of work. Then felt guilty and had a momentary fiscal crises. Then slept again. Then woke up to a ringing cell phone, which I hate, so I chucked it under my pillow and tried to pretend the outside world didn't exist.

About 2pm I figured I would give the day another shot. Drove to uni, anticpating coffee and some productive study-time. Coffee place was shut. I got cranky and went straight back to my car. Which then refused to start. I sat in my car for 15 minutes smoking like a chimney and working up the courage to call AA (they are mean!) while still trying to start my car at random intervals. 5th time lucky and I was on my way.

So I went to visit my Bio-Dad at work. But he is apparently in Hamilton (thanks for the heads up Dad!), which is on a whole different island. So I just kept driving, and driving, and driving, going nowhere in particular. Wound up at the beach. But it is another crappy grey and altogether uninspiring day, so I just kept driving, and driving, and driving. I drove with no plan or destination for about 2 hours. Then went to the mall which is 5 minutes away from my house, got a Starbucks frappucino (which induced guilt-based nausea), and headed home. I then spilt said frappucino all over my computer chair and jeans. Ughhh.... Shoulda stayed in bed!

I have managed to do some washing and tidy a little. But it's now nearly 7pm, and I just refused James and Alex's kind offer of a 'sesh' because I really don't feel like making conversation and being all nice-nice and then crashing out in a stoned catatonia only to wake up at 11pm full-o-beans.

Also, my 2 favourite flatmates, Mel & Steve, moved out yesterday to their new place in Lyttleton. I am going to miss them very much. New couple seem nice, Dave & Amy from China, but they're no Mel & Steve. I think that may have something to do with my disconnected melancholia. Or I could just be depressed. Or maybe it's a delayed Seasonal Affective Disorder reaction to not having a proper summer, and therefore lacking in melatonin, or vitamin D or whatever.

Sheesh... Little Miss Whinge-a-Lot is in the house!
Think I will just retire to bed now and watch mind-numbing TV until sleep finally kills this damn day dead.

Well now this is news....

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 17:29:33 GMT

To me anyways.

Anna Nicole Smith is DEAD!

Holy Crap.

That's kinda weird really.

And sad.

Born Under a Bad Sign

Fri, 09 Feb 2007 09:56:04 GMT

Oh my god ..... just like in the chibi's ..... Sam has a VW Bug .... thats hilarious !!! (Seriously though, how did he fit?)

1stly - Dean is so damn cute when he is worried about Sam
2ndly - Whats with the wall hanging in the motel ... it's like giant pieces of packing pellets
3rdly - "me and you in that motel room in west texas" ... crack/slash squee ... it's all wincesty goodness (and yet, not)

I hope we get flashbacks ... 'cause a VW driving, methols smoking, malt-liquour drinking Sam just sounds too damn awesome for words.

Sheesh ... Sammy had to BREAK a window to get in ? definitely not real Sam we are talking about here
Oooooo... a corpse !! Dun Dun!
This episode is really dark, as in absence of light, not recesses of human psyche. uhhh ... no, they just turned the lights on.
I love how Dean wants to believe so badly that Sam has not killed this guy.

Sonofabitch count - 1!

A hunter ... oh noes ! + Watching yourself kill someone on CCTV cannot be fun. (What a nice arsenal though)
The look that Dean gives Sam... and the look on Sam's face *ouch*, made me wanna cry.
No no no no no .... oh Sam, the one thing that would hurt Dean the most is losing you... did you learn nothing from Croatoan?

Holy SHIT! Sam pistol whipping Dean ... that came out of nowhere! Farrk!
Nice dress lady

Sonofabitch count - 2!

Justin Timberlake ... sorry ... not even remotely funny (except maybe the triple threat part)
Oh please God NO! Not the return of Jo Harvelle (unless of course Sammy kills her ... that'd be okay)
And can I just say, predatory-evil!Sam .... dead fuckin' sexy ... like wowza.

The Doors .... the crystal ship ... my favourite doors song ... oh, I think they heard me squee in Tasmania!!!! Arggghhhh .... SPN music = love
Bad part of this is I can't really concentrate on what they are saying
until
'my daddy shot your daddy in the head' ... 'how could you know that' ... 'i hear things' - best delivery EVER!
gagged Jo - nice
Dean with the holy water - nicer

Sonofabtich count - 3!

'Sam's dewy sensitive eyes' .... okay, we get it, you read the fanfiction.
Sam shoots dean ... nice
What is that tune his phone is playing? Sounds like Smoke on the Water, but not...
Is it wrong to think Dean grunting in pain is like the SEXIEST THING EVER ?
*guh* ... arms people, we got arms .... *is ded*
Dean threatening to tie me to a post would make my knees buckle
Aww .. no Sammy skin? - denied !

You just cannot kill off Bobby ... oh wait, thats a show motif isn't it ... kill of the secondary characters that everyone likes
Black-eyed Sam is weirdly attractive ... soon as that gets capped I think I found some new wallpaper
Oh Bobby ... 'don't try to con a con-man' ... you win at life dude

Sam laying into Dean ... nice change
Meg's back from hell ? Eeeeek
The whole conversation though ... poor Dean. It's like everything he tries so hard not to admit even to himself is being thrown in his face.
Love the whole 'did I miss anything' - *punch*.

I'm gonna save you if its the last thing I do - awww Brudders!

'Dude, you like full-on had a girl inside you for like a whole week ... its pretty naughty'.
Classic finish.

Musical selections ... Dean Winchester style

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 15:32:58 GMT

4am on a Friday morning ... insomnia SUX!

I'm bored out of my skull, so I have made up a new Dean Winchester inspired playlist for my iPod (his name is Pinky the Beast... cause I have pink cover on it and he's a hardy 'lil beast).

24 by Jem   ... 'cause, it's like, about dying and stuff
99 Problems (Linkin Park Remix) by Jay-Z ... 'cause he's one step closer to the edge and about to break ?
Between Angels and Insects by Papa Roach   ... dunno, just like this song
Do You Wanna Touch Me by Joan Jett and the Blackhearts   ... yes, very much, thanks for asking
Downtown by Peaches ... 'cause who wouldn't want to take Dean 'downtown'
Enter Aretha (mash-up) by Rolf Schraa ... 'cause it's from this awesome fanvid I saw a while ago ... and has dialogue
God's Gonna Cut You Down by Johnny Cash ... John, go do his will!, apparently this has also been used for a promo in the US
Here You Come Again by Dolly Parton   ... 'looking better than a body has a right to' damn skippy he does
Home by Three Days Grace ... dunno again, just like this song
I Fought The Law by The Clash ... please don't let the law win Dean
Like a Stone by Audioslave ... it strikes me as a very melancholy song
Little Wing by Jimi Hendrix   ... one of my favourite songs EVER, it usually winds up in every playlist
Living After Midnight by Judas Priest   ... this song is so Dean 'rocking until dawn'
Renegade by Styx ... no explanation needed for this one
Simple Man by Lynyrd Skynyrd ... just makes me think of the loss of the relationship he could have had with his mum *tears*
Sober by Tool ... another one of my favourite songs EVER which ends up on most playlists
Soldier Of Fortune by Deep Purple   ... Dean is so a soldier of fortune ... another melancholy song
Stranglehold by Ted Nugent   ... pure guitar rock porn for your ears
The Hey Song by The Ramones   ... Hey needs no explanation
White Room by Cream ... wicked awesome drums
Carry On My Wayward Son by Kansas   ... again , no explanation required
Wheel In The Sky by Journey    ... Journey gets mocked all over the place, but I REALLY like this song
Ballroom Blitz by Blue Oyster Cult    ... Oh yeah, it was like lightning!
I Feel Like Making Love by Bad Company ... all about the Wincest here
Hair Of The Dog by Nazareth    ... 'cause now you're messing with a 'sonofabitch'
Low Rider by War    ... total metallicar song (to me anyways) and just really damn groovy
Paranoid by Black Sabbath    ... beyond awesome ,   Ace Of Spades by Motorhead   ... ditto
Dirty White Boy by Foreigner   ... he so is, but he's a frakkin' HOT dirty white boy ... especially when dirty!
The Unforgiven by Metallica, Immigrant Song by Led Zeppelin, Thunderstruck by AC/DC ... 3 top tunes
Wanted Dead or Alive by Bon Jovi ... He's a cowboy, riding a steel horse ... 'nuff said
and Freebird by Lynyrd Skynyrd bringing up the rear. (Is it just a crack/slash overdose that is making that sound naughty?)

And thats all I have picked for now. I like to add to my playlists in bits'n'pieces. They usually end up ridiculously huge, and then I go through and chunk 'em down a little... and so it goes

Now what can I do to occupy my neverending waking hours?

Kinetics SUCK!

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 04:03:17 GMT

Ughh ... reaction rates ... rate laws ... 1st order ... 2nd order ... -1/n d [A]/dt ...

Why on earth did I think doing physical chemistry was going to be a good idea? Why did I decide on chemistry at all? Harrumph !!!. Sarah (our Lab co-ordinator) came back from a conference in Adelaide today. She had a tan. I'm writhing with jealousy. But it has been fine for over 3 days in a row now... and I can see the stars at night, so maybe summer has decided to stay for a little while... thats nice... it's only like FEBRUARY!

Otherwise, nothing to report. Have decided to try and teach myself how to make icons. That should keep me occupied for the next couple of days ... outta trouble, off the streets etc. I made this one, but only 'cause the LJ edit pic function exists to basically hold your virtual hand while uploading things that are far too big.

I like Detective Jensen though. It's like he's out of a Dick Tracy cartoon or something. Role-playing kink much?

I need a new HD desperately. Only have 2.3 gig of free space left, and that's being whittled away on a daily basis. I have a ridiculous number of SPN pics... well over 1000... I *really* have a problem... there needs to be a "Supernatural Addicts Anonymous" group. Or maybe a Holy Tabernacle Church of The Brothers Winchester. That'd give this obsession some legitimacy atleast... register for tax-exempt status... have charity raffles... bake cookies in the shape of hip-flasks and the Impala... release box-sets of The Greatest Hits of Mullet Rock...

I repeat. I have a problem. A huge one. But I wouldn't give it up for all the HD space in the world.

Trash Slash *guh*